(Source: apursuitofbeing, via heartrate)

daynah222:

The reason we can’t let go of someone is because deep down inside, we still have hope. This whole time that I have been clinging on to you and holding onto our memories and the things you said and did, I wasn’t letting you go even though you had already let me go. Today, I woke up and remembered how we used to be. Then I looked at how we are today, and how you don’t even bother to ask me how I’m doing, or even speak to me, I found myself saying, “ Wow… Everything has changed. And we will never be the same again. ” and I asked myself, “ Why are you searching for love from someone who has taken all of your love and left? You’re not going to find love in the same place that you lost it. It’s time to look somewhere else, Nhi. Or maybe you should stop looking altogether, and let it find you.” And I think from that moment this morning, I had officially let go of you and any hope that we will be together again in this lifetime. Maybe one day, we will meet again when we are different people. Maybe then, we will be better for each other. Maybe not as a couple, maybe as friends. I don’t know what the future holds, but I know that I am letting you go now. A few weeks ago, I had said that I will be fine with being just your friend, even though I had romantic feelings for you. Now, I am letting go of my romantic feelings and I am letting go of how you were a part of my life. Maybe now that we have been away from each other, you have taught me how to live without you. So this is me beginning the end to my hopes for you. This is me letting you go. I hope you find the happiness you’ve been pretending to have. I hope you find the love that you thought you had with me. And I hope that some time from now, maybe tomorrow, or maybe ten years down the road, that you’ll look back and think, “ Even though I was the one that walked away, it wasn’t her loss. It was mine.” Because when you left me, I lost someone who didn’t care about me enough to stay with me (that isn’t really a loss).You lost me, someone who cared enough to stay with you. You lost me, someone who truly loved you. And when I look back, I try to tell myself, “ Don’t cry over someone who let you go. Smile because they just gave you a chance to find someone better.” Thank you for showing me that I deserve better Daytona. Thank you for giving me the chance of having someone better. I’m done looking through snapshots of our conversations and missing what you used to say. I’m done looking at your pictures and thinking of how “amazing” you were. I’m done staying up all night drowning in my own tears because you left me. I’m done questioning myself about why you left me. It’s not because I’m not good enough or I don’t measure up that you left me, it’s because you don’t know how to cherish what you had. I’m done wondering if you will take me back. I’m done staying up all night, spending all my time, money, efforts, and creativity creating gifts for you. I’m done with the hope that I have for you. Thank you for teaching me that I deserve better than going through this pain.

Sincerely,
The girl that just got over you,
Nhinnah Nhi Vo.